Sack ! 5 yard back ; Lost soul in America

I felt ... lonely, I realize I have taken many things for granted, like parents, siblings and friends back home. This loneliness bring forth a time of reflection, reflection upon my walk with God. In this country of freedom, there is nobody to tell me what to do, I can skip church, refuse to serve, I can even don't eat because there is nobody to tell me when to eat.

This time of reflection showed me that I've lose focus on Christ, please continue to pray for me, as I continue to persevere to the touchdown line.

I wrote something blindly few weeks ago, it's for my world literature paper, now that I've re-read it again, I finally find meaning in it, and therefore would like to share it with everyone.

MY CONFESSION
Oh God you are my God, and I will ever praise you. I will seek you in the morning, and I will follow you all of my days, and step by step you lead me, and I will follow you all of my days. Humans, the unique creation of yours, find meaning in you alone. Bearing your image, we are to live a life that reflect your face and your nature. In all creation, humans find themselves empty, untill you satisfy them, and only you can satisfy them. You made a hole in our heart, a hole that resemble your shape, we humans have tried and found everything on earth to fill in the hole, but nothing can fit the hole or satisfy us, because that hole only can fill by you, God. "You stir man to take pleasure in praising you, because you have made us for yourself, and our heart is restless until it rests in you(Augustine 3)." Not only do you satisfy me, but also your love oh God, amazes me. I wonder and ponder upon your love, and found no understanding in it. Heaven and earth could not contain your love and therefore you created us, so that your overflowing and abundance of love can be fill in us, even so, generation after generation of people could not contain your love. Just as the song 'the love of God' says, to write the love of God above, would drain the ocean dry. Nor could the scroll contain the whole, though stretched from sky to sky. Still, despite of dwelling in your love, in the middle of the garden is where the beginning of us turning away from you. Your love oh God, seeks to reunite us with you, you made every effort by turning us away from sin and lead us back to you, but again and again we despise and rejected you. You send your son to die for us when we are still sinners, through crucified and death came our salvation. 2000 years has passed, and here am I struggling day and night with sin, trying my best to grasp hold of your love and staying in the race, and finish it victoriously.